Happy yet really sad

So my little brother turned 12 yesterday....I can't believe it I was 12 when he was born....it seems like he was a toddler just yesterday. I know I sound like a sappy parent but that is because in a way I am...I mean I raised the kid and now he is 12...wow! Worse yet for the first time in his entire life I am going to be more than a short car ride away and that is really hard for me to deal with right now. I am excited to move and I am excited to finally get to live with Bry but GOD I am going to miss him so much, it is like leaving my own kid behind. I worry about what he is going to do, what friends he is going to have, whether he will get hurt playing sports. My mom has never been a very good mom and she has never paid attention to what is going on with my brothers....I have always been the "mom" and I have always been the one to make sure they were doing well in school and not hanging out with the wrong kids. Jordan has basically lived at my house for the past year which has been great and now he is going to be an 11 hour car ride away. I am going to miss his first REAL football games for school, his dances, his basketball games....I am going to miss everything and that sucks! I tried really hard not to cry when they left today b/c since he is 12 now he is trying to be all cool and stuff but he just hugged me forever and it physcially hurt to put him in the car and say goodbye to him. He is mad at me for moving so far away but he won't just come out and say it....oh well....what can you do...you gotta live your life right!

I gotta sleep b/c I have a lot of moving to do tomorrow! Off to Georgia we go....compeletly broke but at least we are together now!

Later kids